Help me to survive, my killer

How can I find

my moment in time;

the life I've forgotten,

the second I'll die.

The ships that now drown

on this ocean...

And everyday I

try to stay fuckin' fine.

But you wanna kill me

and I don't wanna fight.

This life is not easy,

I can't even survive.

And the boy that I've chosen,

he will never be mine.

Can you tell me, my guy,

what to do in this life?

If the man that I wanted,

he will never be mine...?